Having Cancer

I decided to publish the following poem that I wrote for my partner's mother because if the changing effect it has helped her achieve over her illness and her renewed hope in life.

It is the first poem I have had translated into another language so I thought I would publish both versions and give you it exactly as I gave it to her. I hope it will help you as it has helped her and that you will learn the meaning of true faith in change.

Having Cancer

I recently visited my partner's mother in Germany in hospital with cancer. She had been lucky all of her life having no major illness or set back then suddenly she started to loose weight and found herself coughing a lot.

It was just a dry cough but it persisted so she eventually listened to everyone who had been telling her she should go see her Dr.

The Dr sent her to hospital and it was discovered she had cancer of the ovaries which has spread throughout her body causing secondaries in her lungs. She had not gotten a gyno test for years and despite some personal discomforts that she had felt years before she convinced herself that all was ok and ignored them.

The outcome was that she had to get most of her bowel removed and now has to deal with the issues that came with radical surgery in those areas.

She was and is a very proud woman always fit and 100% well in her own eyes so becoming like this was especially hard for her to accept at 69 years of age.

She became ashamed of herself and I guess you could say she was actually disgusted with her final condition. Her mental state became very negative to the point where she had all but given up on herself.

Both she and her husband would continously punish themselves because of the fact they did not do something about it sooner, despite the seemly obvious signs she had on a number of occasions in past symptoms.

Yet, they also knew that no amount of wishing would change the present fact, that hindsight is a wonderful thing when you continually tell yourself you should have done this or that, you knew, you ignored things now to what seemed "to your cost" etc etc.

The fact is that none of that matters now, because the cards have fallen and you have to make good with the hand you have. After a long 3 weeks of realisasion of this and the acceptance that life has to and can go on, I decided to write her a piece of poetry that would help her get through each day and enable her to recover hopefully to what ever level possible or should I say "the level she chose to have".

I explained to her that my belief that the mind can influence the body and regress many sicknesses was a truth and a natural law.

We become what we think, we create our world as we go along and I told her that if she read this poem every day feeling the words trusting in them and herself and really meaning what they said, she would indeed survive and go on and not only that she would help everyone else around her create a postive environment by which she would rest on supported in a collective hope.

To realise that it is often harder for those around the person that has cancer to be positive was a big step towards her sucess or failure. If she could convince herself they would also believe.

We should never give up hope in ourselves and in each other. The Dr can do so much the surgeon can remove only from the body but the mind has an ability and a control way beyond that of any scalpel blade or drug. The human spirit is more powerful than the best medical care mankind can offer.

We only need faith in ourselves and a total belief that we will go on to insure our survival. With a single smile we can reverse so many sicknesses and illnesses if we chose to believe it.

So for anyone out there that may be going through the same life shattering illness and dispares I want to give you this poem to help you overcome and win.

Forget the odds, forget the statistics, forget what happened to the last guy that had what you have. There is only one -you and that also dictates that your recovery can be just as unique.

So stop crying and feeling sorry for yourself now. Only you can do this, eveyone else can advise you and watch but it is you that has to run the race.

Read these words, believe them totally, relax in the new found hope that you can win no matter what the experts say and see what happens. You may discover that cancer is only a word that describes a condition. You may come realise that the negative and terrifying stigma that we pin to the "C" word it is no more than a social conditioning passed down through the ages like the fear of spiders. We can learn to cope with it without fear and finally realise not all spiders bite and even those that do can often be handled with care!

We fear what we don't understand but we as human beings can learn to understand.

Today the lady I talk of is going through life and making a steady improvement getting stronger day by day.

She has good days and a lot of bad days but either way she is here to experience both and has learnt to face her fears.

Remember this one thing, "It is within the darkness of the storm that I seen the full beauty of the dove"

If your would like to contact me or maybe wish to comment on your own condition or someone close to you please feel free to mail me at contact@colintmercer.com I will try to answer each one of your letters.

Good Luck!

My Way

Only I can become well

Only by my thoughts can I heal

I must decide to get well

Now I will get up and walk

People can talk and advise me

They can encourage and they can cry

Doctors can only hope to mend the body

They have no power in healing the mind

The carpenter can mend a chair that is broken

He may guess through experience how long it has

But he cannot know its future use or keeper

The chair knows who it holds and its home

The doctor can mend the body that is sick

He may guess through experience how long it has

But he cannot know its future or its mind

Only the mind knows how to heal and its peace

Today is the start of my future

Today I will take one extra step

For I am master of my destiny

My faith assures my will to win

Today I will smile at someone new

Today I will laugh at what I do

For I can chose to know happiness

My joy holds me in the hand of God

Today I will decide to listen

Today I will understand others

For with my ears I learn patience

My thoughts are heard by God

Today I will chose to notice beauty

Today I will see it in a single flower

For in me dwells the beauty of my soul

My soul is seen by God

Today I will strengthen my dreams

Today I will look forward to the date of my dreams

For my dreams will guide me through pain

My dreams are real and come near

Today I will shout loud at defeat

Today I will close the door to weakness

For I will never be beaten

I am here because I fight, I never give in

Today my life has been renewed

Today I will create my peace

For contentment is great gain

My contentment is with God

Now that I am being healed

Now that I am becoming strong

I cannot be stopped

For it is He that fights with me.

Today I will thank God for healing me

Today I will laugh with the joy of love

For I am thankful and I am content

God has answered me because I believed

Today I will remember those who love me

Today I will understand their feelings

I will not misjudge their words of help

I will remember my love for them.

Colin T Mercer

Author of “For Irish Eyes”

www.colintmercer.com

 

 

Mein Weg

Ich kann gesund werden

Nur durch meinen Willen kann ich mich heilen

Ich muss michentscheiden gesund zu werden

Jetzt werde ich aufstehen und laufen

Die Leute können reden und mir Rat geben

Sie können michermutigen und sie können weinen

Die Ärzte können nur hoffen, den Körper zu reparieren

aber sie haben nicht die Kraft der Heilung durch die Seele.

Der Schreiner kann einen Stuhl reparieren, der kaputt ist,

Durch seine Erfahrung mag er wissen wie es geht.

Aber er kann nicht sagen, ob der Stuhl hält oder nicht

Der Stuhl weiß was er auszuhalten hat und wo er hingehört.

Der Arzt kann den Körper reparieren, wenn er krank ist.

Durch seine Erfahrung mag er wissen wie es geht.

Aber er kann nicht wissen was in Zukunft passiert

Nur die eigene Seele weiß, wie man heilt und wie man Frieden findet.

Heute ist der Anfang meiner Zukunft

Heute werde ich einen Schritt mehr laufen

Denn damit bereite ich meine Zukunft vor

Meine Glaube sagt mir, dass ich gewinnen werde

Heute werde ich michwieder an etwas Neuem erfreuen

und darüber lachen was ich tue

Denn ich kann mein Glücklichsein selber wählen

Mein Glück liegt in Gottes Händen.

Heute werde ich entscheiden zuzuhören

Heute werde ich andere verstehen

Ich werde lernen geduldiger zu sein

Meine Gedanken werden von Gott gehört

Heute werde ich wieder die Schönheit der Natur bewundern

und jede einzelne Blume sehen

Und in meiner Seele wächst diese Schönheit

Die von Gott gesehen wird.

Heute werden meine Träume stärker

Heute werde ich michauf meine Träume freuen.

Meine Träume leiten michdurch die Zeit der Schmerzen

Meine Träume sind wahr und kommen näher

Heute werde ich ärgerlich aufbrausen

Und die Tür der Schwäche verschließen

Denn ich werde michnie geschlagen geben

Ich bin hier, weil ich kämpfe und nie aufgeben werde

Heute beginnt mein Leben von Neuem

Heute werde ich meinen inneren Frieden entwerfen

Um Erfüllung zu finden

Meine Erfüllung mit Gott

Jetzt, da ich geheilt wurde

Und jetzt werde ich auch wieder stark werden

Nichts wird mich aufhalten

Weil Er es ist, der mit mir zusammen kämpft

Heute werde ich Gott für meine Heilung danken

Heute werde lachen mit großer Lust und Liebe

Denn ich bin dankbar und zufrieden

Gott hat mir geantwortet weil ich an ihn glaube.

Heute werde ich mich an alle erinnern, die mich lieben

Heute werde ich ihre Gefühle verstehen

Ich werde ihre helfenden Worte nicht missverstehen

Ich werde michan meine Liebe für sie erinnern.

Colin T Mercer

Autor of “For Irish Eyes”

www.colintmercer.com